Day 15 conclusions:

  • Right here, right now, without the Big Bang, I have the power to change my experience of reality.
  • This is freedom at my fingertips, this is power, and it is available now not in some future time when I have climbed the mountain.
  • My Experiment with Love continues to inspire my commitment to living in love.

Why

A very wise teacher once told me that it’s not that the thought habits and patterns disappear, you just become more adept at recognising them and using your tools to manage them. I felt very disappointed. I wanted to be rid of my madness, I wanted it all to disappear into thin air. I wanted freedom, enlightenment and I wanted it now. I wanted the Big Bang.

What I have since learned, and today more than any other, is that he was right. Not only is this path more achievable, more empowering and far less stressful, particularly if we adopt a view that we are already whole and the process of self-realisation then becomes the process of dismantling the parts of us which are not serving our wholeness – disempowering the thought habits and patterns that keep us reactive.

It is actually more liberating to know that right here, right now, without the Big Bang, I have the power to change my experience of reality. How cool is that? For me it doesn’t get any better than that.

How do I know that?

Because today I found myself sad and wanting about my life situation, and then even sad and wanting about the whole concept of the power of love. ‘If I can’t transform my experience with all of my tools and my intention, what chance do other people have with less tools?’ then the very crucial thought occurred to me. ‘Are you using them?’ I had to answer, ‘no, I am not’.

It was a subtly different version of a self-defeating thought pattern I have experienced before, a habit of self-sabotage. This time, inspired by my experiment with love, I recognised the pattern and started to use the tools that have been most effective in transforming my patterns – yoga and meditation.

Triangles, Bhīma, warriors 1 & 2, and my mood of sadness and wanting had completely shifted. I was ready to evoke love into a clear space so I held my finger and silently chanted Om. Instantly the sensation of love was evoked through my body and my mind was peaceful again.

This is freedom at my fingertips, this is power, and it is available now not in some future time when I have climbed the mountain.

Oh, and my Experiment with Love continues to inspire my commitment to living in love.